Time is flying by WAY to fast!

Jack is already 4 months old today and I still can't believe it. He is getting bigger, smarter and more curious as the days go on. And I know there is no way to freeze time, but oh how I wish I could. I never imagined being a mother and now that I am, I can't picture life any other way. I believe I was always supposed to have him. In some way or another, I was always supposed to be his mother and he was always supposed to be my son. If that makes sense. We grow more in love with him as new silly faces or weird noises come out of him. He is starting to scream at the top of his lungs and when he feels like throwing a fit he will start to push on his legs and throw himself back. Oh, but how I love his smile.

It isn't all laughs and giggles though. Sometimes i find myself frustrated because I don't know what he wants. He has already been changed, fed, burped and I know he's tired, but he won't sleep in my arms or the swing and when I put him down his arms flail everywhere as he continues to scratch himself. Then you have to literally hold them down in order for him to be calm. I HATE being frustrated with him. At night when he wakes up constantly and I don't know whats wrong, is when I get most frustrated then I cry because I feel like a bad mother. As much as Ram has helped and is there, I don't think he will ever understand the pressures a mother goes through. I have come to have a greater respect for my own mother because she did it four times.

There are days where I have to learn to let him cry. He is starting to get used to arms and knows when he starts to whimper we run. It is quite funny how smart he is. Yesterday, for example, I put him in the swing, but he was not having it. I figured maybe he needed to burp, get changed or something. NOPE! As soon as I sat him on my lap facing the TV he was calm. His face was priceless.

No matter what he does, my love for him will continue to grow. And I can never stay too mad at him.

P.S. I love to watch him sleep.

11.11.11

I cannot believe that my baby is already 2 months. It seems like just yesterday he was born, yet time has flown by so fast. It hits me everyday how he won't be this little very much longer...I wish time would stay still so we could live in these moments as long as we wanted to. He is so precious and curious of the world he lives in. He talks a lot and sometimes we actually have conversations. I hear talking to them at an early age and trying to get them to imitate your noises is a good exercise.

It was hard going back to work full-time. I cried the week before knowing I would be leaving him everyday for at least 8 hours. This Monday I knew that he knew I had to leave him again. He is so happy every morning, but when it is time for me to tell him good-bye he gets real quiet and gives me a funny look. Then when I finally get home to him you can tell he has been missing me. If he is awake there are signs he wants to be in my arms. He'll flail his arms as he moves his body up and down as if to let me know to pick him up. It is the cutest ever. Or he'll smile real big when he hears my voice. It makes me happy in the moment, but it breaks my heart that I leave him feeling like that. I hope in some small fraction he knows that I don't want to leave and that it is just routine, but that I always go back. I would hate to leave him if he thought I was never coming back....so I'll try not to think about that.

On a another note, Thanksgiving is coming up and I am SO ready for the yummy food. I have to find a cute outfit for Jack to wear. I also need to start buying jackets, winter hats and gloves. So excited for my brother and cousin to finally meet him!! I think I might cry when I see their reactions. Especially my brothers.

Well, today is a good day and I am blessed!

I'm a Mama!

So I had my precious baby boy 9/11/11 (he wouldn't be my son if he didn't make a big entrance lol) at 3:39am. He was 7 lbs 11 oz and 20 inches long. He came out with a head full of hair and very light skinned. And his full name is Jack Dylan Munguia. When I explain my "labor story" other mothers gasp at how easy I had it. No Pain. No Contractions. No Complications. The only thing that freaked me out was once the nurse told me I was dilated to 10 centimeters I started to get uncontrollable shakes. Had I not been in labor people would have thought I was having a seizure - that bad! They calmed down once the baby arrived.

 



 I may not know what labor pains feel like, but the whole delivery experience is indescribable. I get butterflies when I relive the moments of my baby's first cry and when they laid him on my chest. He melted my heart and has every day since then. It's hard to even find the words to describe how I felt and how I feel every day knowing our baby is here, perfect and beautiful. I love being his mother. He is so precious.






It's funny, when a woman is pregnant there is no real way of finding out what the baby will look like, but in some weird way I couldn't imagine Jack looking any other way. Its like my heart knew. The perfect combination of us.

Being a mother is hands down the best feeling in the world.

He is almost here....

Well, I am 38 weeks and am dilated to 1.7. I am hoping Jack waits at least another week to make his appearance, but my doctor says he can come at any time. It is crazy how fast time has flown by. He is almost here and I am filled with so many emotions right now.

I started to pack my hospital bag last night and already have Jack's outfits picked out...lol. He is going to be the cutest baby ever! I cannot wait to hold him.

Baby showers were a success! Had three total and both Ram and I are so grateful for all the love and support so many family members and friends have shown us. Jack is surrounded by so much love.

6 weeks left!

It amazes me how fast time has flown by. Our little man is almost here and we are so excited! He moves all the time now and I am already used to it. However, his hiccups do get on my nerves....is that awful to say? I'm so in love though. He has stolen my heart in a way no one else ever will. I keep thinking about the first moment we will meet and when they place him in my arms - oh, what a wonderful feeling I get just thinking about it. It has to be ten times better.

I am already forgotten! As soon as I walk through the door the baby gets more attention and he's still in my belly. It is at the point where my 4-year old cousin didn't even invite me to her birthday party this past weekend, ONLY baby Jack was invited. lol. He has no idea how much he is already loved.

Giddy

We are finally moved into our home and settling in great! A little more organizing and unpacking still needs to be done, but it will get done. Some decorating is necessary too and the babies room needs to be set up....I've just been lazy.

My first baby shower was this past weekend and it was lovely. My friends did a great job planning and hosting it. So good that I cried when I walked in....but I loved every minute of it. It was a good turnout and I love my friends for going and being apart of it. :) I did realize that baby Jack is going to be surrounded by girls growing up because most of my friends have daughters....he is going to have so much fun! lol.

33 weeks today...it is going by so fast. 

Living in the moment

This weekend was a bit overwhelming....we are finally moved into our home! Crazy how the home I was raised in as a child, my little one will be raised in too. :) Everything is ready to be unpacked and hopefully I can get some decorating done. The last two days have been normal. Ram and I have lived together before for two years so I guess we are just already comfortable enough that it already feels normal.

I really appreciate my parents for everything they have been doing for us! Love y'all. Also, my grandma, uncle, mom, and sisters for helping clean and unpack Saturday along with my brother helping us move! I already know I was a pain that day....

I am 32 weeks tomorrow and now I am really antsy. We are awaiting your arrival baby Jack! Middle name has still not been chosen. I refuse to leave it as Jack Munguia. I always liked my middle name and since Ram picked Jack then I pretty much get to decide the middle name, but I still would like for Ram to like it. 

I am very excited for this weekend because it is my first baby shower! Love my friends for wanting to throw this for me! Y'all are the best!