This morning as I was going through my bills, I found an invitation addressed to me. Usually my friends let me know if I will be getting a invitation for a birthday party or any event they're planning. That way I can keep an eye out for it. This time no one notified me so I had no idea what it could be.Well, I open it and the first thing it says is "Save the Date". ANOTHER one of my friends is getting married! Don't get me wrong, I am so happy and excited for both of them, but there is a part of me that is sad because I know I won't be able to plan a wedding until later on. That was supposed to be my next step. Instead we have a little surprise awaiting us now. If we were to get married any time soon, it wouldn't be anywhere close to the wedding I want. Which I can live with, but one day I hope I am still able to have that.
On a good note, the baby let me eat a slice of pizza today! :)
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Monday, March 28, 2011
Sick of being tired
I find myself tired all the time now. In the morning, I don't want to get up. After work, I just want to go to sleep. My room is a mess and food isn't even the highlight of my day because depending on what I want to eat I will most likely get sick. I usually have a "bad hair day" everyday because I don't feel like messing with it (plus I need a haircut) and makeup is just a hassle. I told myself I wanted to be a cute pregnant woman...well...right now, I just feel like crap. Whoever said "Pregnancy is bliss" was wrong! AND when am I supposed to "Glow"? Apparently, my boyfriend is "glowing like a pregnant woman" according to his friend while I look pale. I am sure it will get better, just right now....I feel and look ugly.
So, I was reading the 14 weeks update on a pregnancy website and it said that if my baby is a girl, she will already have 2 million eggs in her ovaries and that I am really preparing to be a grandmother.....Excuse me?! I haven't even prepared to be a mother, but now I am supposed to be a grandmother! Is there a way to spay/neuter your children like we can with our pets?? lol. I think we should have the power to decide that. That may be dumb for me to say, but the fear of teenage pregnancy is going through my mind. I guess I just have to pray that we raise our child right.
-Michelle
So, I was reading the 14 weeks update on a pregnancy website and it said that if my baby is a girl, she will already have 2 million eggs in her ovaries and that I am really preparing to be a grandmother.....Excuse me?! I haven't even prepared to be a mother, but now I am supposed to be a grandmother! Is there a way to spay/neuter your children like we can with our pets?? lol. I think we should have the power to decide that. That may be dumb for me to say, but the fear of teenage pregnancy is going through my mind. I guess I just have to pray that we raise our child right.
-Michelle
Friday, March 25, 2011
4 months!
My name is Michelle. I am 23 years old, recent graduate from TCU, I've been with my boyfriend for 5 years and now... pregnant with my first child. Let me just start off by saying the pregnancy wasn't expected. I had so many ambitions and dreams I wanted to accomplish before I wanted to start a family. The news struck me pretty hard and it is sad to say I was very selfish in the beginning. So many thoughts were going through my mind that "confused" wasn't even the right word to describe how I was feeling. After getting over my initial emotions and thoughts, I realized that I am still able to accomplish my dreams just now I'll have a beautiful baby on my arm. I think the baby will even bring me more drive to accomplish all that I want to so that I can help provide a better life for them.
All was fine and dandy until the sickness, stomach pains and inflation of my stomach started to happen. In the beginning, I had a little nausea here and there and the doctor said stomach pains were normal. Now, hovering over the toilet at random times of the day is the story of my life. This kid is a picky eater! May be childish to say that, but what do you expect from a woman who didn't want kids until her 30s and adopt at that! I find myself talking to my stomach at random times telling the baby to calm down and not to make mommy sick. :) Doesn't help! Then came the "mommy" jeans. I started wearing those at three months because I was so bloated and wearing my other jeans started to hurt. My mom and aunts were surprised I was even wearing them because I wasn't even showing. But they are SO much more comfortable.
The hormones are driving me crazy too. I snap at random times and crying is a new habit. My mom has to constantly remind my brother and sisters to be nice to me. It is quite funny. My boyfriend seems to be handling it pretty well. I snapped at him once, but realized my mistake because I shouldn't have and apologized. He sure does try to feed me a lot though. Oh, and he is on me about taking my OMEGA 3 vitamins. It helps with the brain tissue and he wants our baby to be a baby genius. It is cute actually. Now, I am 4 months and I am starting to see a little belly bump. The reality of it has sunk and I feel like it is crunch time. It is time to prepare for a home, the baby shower, so on and so forth. At this point in time, my boyfriend and I live separately. We are hoping to rent a house before the baby comes and I am praying things fall into place.
Well, that is where I'm at right now.....happy, sick and hormonal.
-Michelle
All was fine and dandy until the sickness, stomach pains and inflation of my stomach started to happen. In the beginning, I had a little nausea here and there and the doctor said stomach pains were normal. Now, hovering over the toilet at random times of the day is the story of my life. This kid is a picky eater! May be childish to say that, but what do you expect from a woman who didn't want kids until her 30s and adopt at that! I find myself talking to my stomach at random times telling the baby to calm down and not to make mommy sick. :) Doesn't help! Then came the "mommy" jeans. I started wearing those at three months because I was so bloated and wearing my other jeans started to hurt. My mom and aunts were surprised I was even wearing them because I wasn't even showing. But they are SO much more comfortable.
The hormones are driving me crazy too. I snap at random times and crying is a new habit. My mom has to constantly remind my brother and sisters to be nice to me. It is quite funny. My boyfriend seems to be handling it pretty well. I snapped at him once, but realized my mistake because I shouldn't have and apologized. He sure does try to feed me a lot though. Oh, and he is on me about taking my OMEGA 3 vitamins. It helps with the brain tissue and he wants our baby to be a baby genius. It is cute actually. Now, I am 4 months and I am starting to see a little belly bump. The reality of it has sunk and I feel like it is crunch time. It is time to prepare for a home, the baby shower, so on and so forth. At this point in time, my boyfriend and I live separately. We are hoping to rent a house before the baby comes and I am praying things fall into place.
Well, that is where I'm at right now.....happy, sick and hormonal.
-Michelle
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