4 months!

My name is Michelle. I am 23 years old, recent graduate from TCU, I've been with my boyfriend for 5 years and now... pregnant with my first child. Let me just start off by saying the pregnancy wasn't expected. I had so many ambitions and dreams I wanted to accomplish before I wanted to start a family. The news struck me pretty hard and it is sad to say I was very selfish in the beginning. So many thoughts were going through my mind that "confused" wasn't even the right word to describe how I was feeling. After getting over my initial emotions and thoughts, I realized that I am still able to accomplish my dreams just now I'll have a beautiful baby on my arm. I think the baby will even bring me more drive to accomplish all that I want to so that I can help provide a better life for them.

All was fine and dandy until the sickness, stomach pains and inflation of my stomach started to happen. In the beginning, I had a little nausea here and there and the doctor said stomach pains were normal. Now, hovering over the toilet at random times of the day is the story of my life. This kid is a picky eater! May be childish to say that, but what do you expect from a woman who didn't want kids until her 30s and adopt at that! I find myself talking to my stomach at random times telling the baby to calm down and not to make mommy sick. :) Doesn't help! Then came the "mommy" jeans. I started wearing those at three months because I was so bloated and wearing my other jeans started to hurt. My mom and aunts were surprised I was even wearing them because I wasn't even showing. But they are SO much more comfortable.

The hormones are driving me crazy too. I snap at random times and crying is a new habit. My mom has to constantly remind my brother and sisters to be nice to me. It is quite funny. My boyfriend seems to be handling it pretty well. I snapped at him once, but realized my mistake because I shouldn't have and apologized. He sure does try to feed me a lot though. Oh, and he is on me about taking my OMEGA 3 vitamins. It helps with the brain tissue and he wants our baby to be a baby genius. It is cute actually. Now, I am 4 months and I am starting to see a little belly bump. The reality of it has sunk and I feel like it is crunch time. It is time to prepare for a home, the baby shower, so on and so forth. At this point in time, my boyfriend and I live separately. We are hoping to rent a house before the baby comes and I am praying things fall into place.

Well, that is where I'm at right now.....happy, sick and hormonal.

-Michelle